So, it would appear that there was a flaw in my NaBloPoMo plans. I forgot that I was going to be away from internet for the first few days of the month. Instant fail. Except… I’ve taken up drawing again over the past couple months. (bear with me… it’s related…)

I’m still very much learning; I’m happy with a fair number of my drawings, but I feel like a beginner. Over the years my perfectionism has caused me to quickly give up on drawing each time I’ve begun. After all, if I can’t do it perfectly why bother? But it’s the perfect way to really absorb the details in the little things all around me, it makes me calm and happy, and this time I’m determined to make it a part of my life.

I’m training myself in the good kind of stubbornness and have been forcing myself to finish the drawings I start, even if they seem to have gone wrong on the very first line. To my delight I’ve discovered that even when a drawing feels hopelessly doomed, when I see it through to the end there’s always something in it that I’m proud of.

Learning to finish what I start, even when it’s not going according to plan is a very big deal for me. (Aaand here’s the link back to the start.) I’ve missed four days worth of posts this month, but where previously I would have said, “Oh well, I’ll try again next year, or next month…” the new stubborn side of me says, “Whoops, well that didn’t go to plan, better try and rescue it then huh?” I’m away from internet again in a couple days, but instead of giving up I shall just have to do my own little making up and post double some days to make up for the missed ones. Sorted.

And now because I’m bored of making excuses for myself I shall do a double posting today to make up for a missed day. Time to end this one and start fresh with something else.